Good Example.

My whole life I have struggled with weight for various reasons. I had finally gotten a grip on things and got down to a solid 141 3 years ago and then my life went on a roller coaster that made me lose control. While in school I had gained weight b/c of all the stress and insane hours I was keeping. January of my second year I miscarried my first baby. I was a wreck and any slight control I had was lost at that time. God is good and Adam and I were able to conceive again a few months later which brought us our beautiful Olivia and me to where I am today... spare tire and all.

I have mixed emotions on how I look most days. When I'm being especially hard on myself I notice every stretch mark and roll and critique them. When I'm being nice (which isn't much) I think I've done a pretty good job considering I only give birth 6 weeks ago.

All that being said I weighed in at 175.5 this morning. I want to help myself create a positive body image so I can set a good example for my little girl. I don't want her to deal with this on going battle... life is hard enough without the weight. I know that losing weight alone is not going to fix me, but it is a start.

Livi this is my gift to you. I'm going to fix my eating and thinking patterns and fill this house with wholesome food and thoughts. I won't ruin your metabolism with junk food and bad habits. I'm getting healthy so you can be healthy Liv and some day you will thank me for it.

So here we are 175.5. I don't have a set goal on a number yet, but I will fit in my size 10 jeans again, and they won't be tight. :)