The jeans are back...

I DID IT!!!! I'm in my old jeans. I still have weight I want to lose, but for now snug as they may be, my jeans fit and they don't look too bad. :) Weigh in 169.

Onward..

Week one is officially over and I weighed in at 169.5. What an awesome feeling. I lost 6 lbs, but I reached the new landmark... I'm on my way to the 150's. :) I'm feeling good and I bought sneakers yesterday so I can add some walking... hopefully the weather cooperates. So far its been to cold to take Miss Olivia out with me. But I'm off to a good start. I'm going to keep pushing onward. :)

5 down

Ok, so I broke my own rule. I weighed in today. I was trying to wait a full week before weighing in for two reasons...

1. I don't want to become obessed.
2. I don't want to get discouraged if it doesn't come off as quickly as I want.

But I did it, I weighed in... 170.5. Thankfully I'm not disappointed. Some days have been hard, but it's getting easier... I want this to work. This will work. 5 down and hopefully about 25 more to go... we'll see.

I don't know what I'll get down to, but I'm off to a good start. Already I feel better about myself. I'm taking this one step at a time.

Off the roller coaster.

Day two is always one of the hardest... for me anyway. I'm staying strong. The hardest part is making something for Adam and then having to eat something else. Last night I made him homemade mac and cheese... one of our favorites. I was strong... I didn't even eat one bite. I know I will eat it again in moderation, but not yet. I refuse to give up on myself this time. I just have to keep telling myself that any change in diet is hard in the beginning, but I can do it. I've done it before. This time I will make sure it stays though. I'm off the roller coaster.

Good Example.

My whole life I have struggled with weight for various reasons. I had finally gotten a grip on things and got down to a solid 141 3 years ago and then my life went on a roller coaster that made me lose control. While in school I had gained weight b/c of all the stress and insane hours I was keeping. January of my second year I miscarried my first baby. I was a wreck and any slight control I had was lost at that time. God is good and Adam and I were able to conceive again a few months later which brought us our beautiful Olivia and me to where I am today... spare tire and all.

I have mixed emotions on how I look most days. When I'm being especially hard on myself I notice every stretch mark and roll and critique them. When I'm being nice (which isn't much) I think I've done a pretty good job considering I only give birth 6 weeks ago.

All that being said I weighed in at 175.5 this morning. I want to help myself create a positive body image so I can set a good example for my little girl. I don't want her to deal with this on going battle... life is hard enough without the weight. I know that losing weight alone is not going to fix me, but it is a start.

Livi this is my gift to you. I'm going to fix my eating and thinking patterns and fill this house with wholesome food and thoughts. I won't ruin your metabolism with junk food and bad habits. I'm getting healthy so you can be healthy Liv and some day you will thank me for it.

So here we are 175.5. I don't have a set goal on a number yet, but I will fit in my size 10 jeans again, and they won't be tight. :)